We are leaving tomorrow for the Chicagoland area to visit M's relatives and to have Luke baptized. We were able to schedule a baptism at the church where M and I were married almost three years ago. I realized the other day that I have been keeping this blog for a year now and I couldn't help but think about how things have changed. Going back to Lemont seems appropriate since that is where the whole idea of having children together started. I remember wondering when we would have kids and how many, but I had no idea where that journey would take me.
Reading back through those early posts is painful. I was so unhappy. I was unhappy with my body and life in general. The support of the blogging community really helped and changed my attitude. I realized, once again, how fortunate I am. Thank you to everyone who left a comment or sent a card. It means a lot to me.
I look at Luke sleeping peacefully and I can hardly look away. It still seems so unreal, having a baby of my own. He doesn't have a worry in the world and his whole life is ahead of him. Right now, though, his entire existence is food, warm blankets, and Mommy and Daddy. I will remember this when he is leaving for his first day of Kindergarten, having a teenage hissy fit or packing his car to drive to college. As he gets older, I won't be able to always be there when he cries or needs a warm blanket. There will come a day when he'll want to be on his own. That's why I must remember this time and soak up every minute of it. It's already going by so quickly.
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