Thursday, April 17, 2008

I Will Remember

We are leaving tomorrow for the Chicagoland area to visit M's relatives and to have Luke baptized. We were able to schedule a baptism at the church where M and I were married almost three years ago. I realized the other day that I have been keeping this blog for a year now and I couldn't help but think about how things have changed. Going back to Lemont seems appropriate since that is where the whole idea of having children together started. I remember wondering when we would have kids and how many, but I had no idea where that journey would take me.

Reading back through those early posts is painful. I was so unhappy. I was unhappy with my body and life in general. The support of the blogging community really helped and changed my attitude. I realized, once again, how fortunate I am. Thank you to everyone who left a comment or sent a card. It means a lot to me.

I look at Luke sleeping peacefully and I can hardly look away. It still seems so unreal, having a baby of my own. He doesn't have a worry in the world and his whole life is ahead of him. Right now, though, his entire existence is food, warm blankets, and Mommy and Daddy. I will remember this when he is leaving for his first day of Kindergarten, having a teenage hissy fit or packing his car to drive to college. As he gets older, I won't be able to always be there when he cries or needs a warm blanket. There will come a day when he'll want to be on his own. That's why I must remember this time and soak up every minute of it. It's already going by so quickly.

14 comments:

B said...

Those pictures are adorable, especially the last one! Enjoy the baptism...a special weekend for you all.

TeamWinks said...

He's so precious!

Caro said...

wow! he has lovely eyes.

Fertilized said...

Have a safe trip - look at that beautiful baby!

Diana said...

What a cutie!!!!

Nearlydawn said...

How sweet, a wonderful sentiment, and one I really understand now.

What a cutie!

Have a great time with the Baptism! I'm glad you were able to do it in a place with such a special meaning to your family.

ultimatejourney said...

He's adorable! Have a good trip!

Anonymous said...

You made me WEEPY! Dang it.

Have a great trip. I know you will. Make M stop at DQ for a Blizzard (have one for me, will ya?)

Kesses to the baby

I'll see you when you get back!

JJ said...

The pictures are precious...

I hope the baptism was very special for you all!

Chris said...

The last picture with the smile is beautiful! Hope your trip goes well!

FattyPants said...

What a beautifully happy baby. Have a safe trip.

Courtney said...

I hope you had a wonderful (and smooth) trip! Those pictures of Luke just absolutely melt my heart. :)

Cibele said...

I am glad that you are in a happier place now (So am I)Luke is so adorable!!!!

lifelemons said...

Time really is just soaring by with these little ones!

Luke is just adorable!