So That's What It Looks Like

I have long held the belief that the best way to make AF start is to spend money on a box of pregnancy tests. Works every time, right? I looked at my calendar yesterday and realized that I was 15dpo. I've never made it past 11 dpo. Ever. My boobs hurt a little more than usual and I wanted to take a nap every afternoon. None of these things really added up for me, though. Imagine my surprise when a big fat + sign appeared on my test this morning! Holy SHIT.

I always imagined I would cry and run to M and we would embrace with music playing in the background. In reality it was 5:45am and he didn't want to turn on the light in the bedroom. I don't really care at this point, though. I kept looking at the plus sign and thought about all of the BFNs I have seen over the last 12 months.

I want to jump for joy, but the truth is I am worried and I feel sort of numb. I wasn't as careful as I normally am this cycle. I just didn't see how this month would be any different from every other month. I have my annual well woman exam on Monday, so I am just going to try to relax and enjoy this feeling now. I will definitely be taking pregnancy tests every morning this weekend. Just for some peace of mind.