Tuesday, July 10, 2007

My Favorite Day Of The Week

Tuesday is my new favorite day of the week. Every Tuesday that goes by means another week of pregnancy. Today is the beginning of week six. I woke up at 3am feeling sick and with a wicked headache. Although I had to stay in bed until 9:30am and didn't get to work until noon, I say bring it on. Bring on the headaches, the puking, the weird food cravings, the sore boobs and the exhaustion. I want it all.

Thanks to everyone who commented on my "fear" post. I know it's something that we all confront on a daily basis. I have been trying to really get a handle on things, but when you're up in the middle of the night it's always hard not to let your imagination get carried away.

I was visiting my parents this weekend when I ran into CH at church. She is due this Saturday and looked very uncomfortable. I thought maybe it would be easier to see her now, but it wasn't. All of the insensitive and condescending things she said came back to me and I still felt hurt and resentful. I am gong to have to try to let all of that go. I don't think I will ever be able to make her understand how her platitudes made me feel and, quite frankly, I don't have the energy right now. Am I going to carry these feelings with me against everyone who gave me idiotic assvice or told me to "relax"? If so, I am going to waste a lot of time and energy.

Thursday is getting closer and closer and I keep going back and forth between worry and excitement. My friend MW who has traveled a very long and very hard IF road told M, you have to allow for the possibility that everything is fine. I'll just hang on to that thought and to my exhaustion and nausea and hope for the very, very best.

11 comments:

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Not that I'm glad you feel crappy, but it is reassuring isn't it? I had a little bout of under the weather over the weekend, but it was short lived. I'm hoping it comes back a little so that I really feel pregnant.

ultimatejourney said...

I think it's fair to forgive CH so you're not wasting energy on resentment, but I'm pretty sure I would never be able to forget what she'd done.

I'm so excited for Thursday, and hopeful that it will alleviate some of your fears.

Inconceivable said...

WOW 6 Weeks, seems like only yesterday i read the wonderful news. I agree with everyone above - It is fair to forgive and stop wasting energy on it!! great advice. I can't wait for your next post. i am so excited for you and thats an awesome thought "be open to the possibility everything is fine". Saying my prayers for ya - (and glad that you are experiencing a lil woozie-ness) .. blessings Farah

Courtney said...

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling the various pains of pregnancy, but you are taking it all in stride! Only crazy IFers wish for the worst of the worst when it comes to pregnancy. :) :) :)

hopeful to hateful in 28 days said...

I am so happy for your symptoms. I 100% understand the fear. It sucks. I'll be praying for a good u/s on Thursday.

Lara said...

Wow I'm very behind in my blog reading!!! I'm so sorry to be so late in congratulating you, but thrilled for you all at the same time!!! I think you're our second braces buncher to win the prize?? (the first being team winks adopting her baby of course!) Of course that said, yours isnt the only blog I haven't been reading like I should be lately...there could be others...I better go so I can get caught up!

Chris said...

Thursdays are my Tuesdays - I know EXACTLY what you're saying :-)

Glad you have the symptoms to reassure you.

Best of luck tomorrow! Can't wait to read the update.

Becks said...

Glad you have passed another milestone....bring them all on!!

Nearlydawn said...

Hey, just found you from Gil's blog!

You and I are only about a week or so apart!

I know what you mean about the symptoms. I got really worried when my boob pain and heartburn relaxed for a couple of days. I was sure it spelled doom. So, I say keep the symptoms coming, if it means I can just be a little peaceful with this process. :)

BTW - Mondays are my Tuesdays. :)

Tam said...

Good luck with everything, can't wait to hear good news on your scan. You're the same day as Bumble...tuesdays are good days!!

FattyPants said...

I know its late but congrats on the pregnancy. I'm wishing heaps of vomiting and tiredness your way.